Disappointment with God

When I feel disappointed with God, I remember (or try to) that I don't know the whole story. I'm also coming to realize that disappointment and anger don't have to speak against my relationship with God; rather, they are emotions to be worked through, and even to allow God to speak into eventually. After all, I may be mad, or upset, but He's still my Father. Of Note: I have not yet experienced the depth of disappointment that comes from the loss of a loved one, or tragedy, so my thoughts are essentially theory.

I have experienced God as...

A constant presence - comforting, "in it" with me, convicting when I rebel against him, and always loving. He is there - not in a creepy way, but like a part of me. My experience of life and the world is inevitably filtered through my relationship with God. That part requires little effort; the hard part is intentionally nurturing our relationship. I love God, but my actions and emotions are fickle.

My Team

Each person on my team has been a role model and an example to me:

Ryan has shown me how to balance grace and truth in everyday life. He is transparent with his life, and calm and thoughtful in responding to tense or uncomfortable situations.

Kat has been an example of having a heart for God. Her passion, enthusiasm, and positivity buoy my spirits, and her passion for prayer is an important reminder for me.

Rachel is the work-ethic bedrock of our Ops team. Her attention to detail and commitment to the cause of Christ in and out of the office is inspiring.

Nate's perseverance in moving to Boston, and his ability to make complex mathematical and financial statistics understandable and applicable are both amazing.

Susie's emergence as the leader of the Transition Track, her willingness to lend a hand, and her collaborative spirit are all inspiring.

Paul has a knack for putting his thumb on an issue and not removing it until it is resolved. His intensity, punctuated by incisive humor, is so valuable to our team.

Courtney is an amazing multi-tasker! She handles multi-faceted conferences and events with ease, and her cheerful spirit is a joy to be around.

Julie probably has more ops experience and skill than the rest of us combined; yet she holds decisions with an open hand. Her humble spirit, not to mention her ability to contribute to the team while raising three small children, is phenomenal.

Lorenna has persevered through an incredible trial with her back this semester, and even through surgery and painful rehab has maintained a bright outlook. Next to Julie, she is probably the highest capacity person I know.

Christina has endured tough years of raising support, yet continues to keep at it and is seeing God do some amazing things! Her faith in the face of obstacles is awesome.

I am so thankful for our Ops Team!